Turmoil

Damn i am like so stressed up now..many people r making my life a living hell....
Even all my close frenz dun seem to understand me....
I am writing here as i seek consolence to the fact att someone who reads this will at least understand the turmoil i am goin thru....
Everyday my days seem to be numbered around me..
All my happiness seem to have been cremated...
Each morning i wake up to the sound of a thousand sirens sounding in my mind
Tellin me its time to go........

Guess I Am Just A Nobody After All

Feelin so lonely and lost as i write this, Just another testament I learned the hard way.

I Thought I was the unprecedented king of the world, your words depicted me as who i really was, an absolute loser.

Manly and greatly respected I thought I was, cowardly and a disgrace I really am.

Always the one to lend a shoulder, the one who savors seeing others being crucified u said.

Ability to withstand anything or so I thought, Able to succumb to mere words as u showed me.

U have taught me tat nothin is to be taken for granted as I have failed to be a true friend to u and also to all others who trusted me.

--- Guess I Am Just A Nobody After All But Just A Mere Figment From My Imagination---




Written just after the previous post........

I AM REAL SORRY THAT IT HAD TO END THIS WAY

I would have cried, had i been born a gal
Only my manity is preventin me from pourin out my feelings

I would have killed myself, had i not felt so guilty
Only my cowardness is preventin me from doin so

I would have burned the world, had i been given the power
Only my lack of dexterity is preventin me from unleashing the power

I would have torn the sky apart, had i been born a god
Only my sins have made me a mere mortal



Dedicated to Shamala... sorry for hurting you

Wat Did I Do?

Wat Did I Do?
Why Have U Choosen To Crucify Me?
Against All Odds, I Have Always Stood By U
But Still, U Turned Against Me
Why?

Wat Did I Do?
Why Am I Being Left Out?
For Everything I Have Toiled, Was For U
Yet, U Decided It Wasn't Enough
Why?

Wat Did I Do?
Why Are You Avoiding Me?
Wenever U Needed Me, I Was There For You
God, How U Distrusted Me
Why? Why? Why?